Understand that, in this situation, "weren't that bad" means they were "bad enough".

(anyway, barring that? this is a halfway useful conversation. hei just doesn't know what he wants out of it, stuck between wanting to know everything and wanting to know as little as possible. but he's always stuck, cut down the middle on everything. it's exhausting.

why couldn't he have just fucking died like he was supposed to?)

I'm not familiar with Eos-Lucis. Where is it located?