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иιℓℓ. ([personal profile] culver) wrote in [community profile] meadowlarklogs2019-02-17 04:33 pm

knows everybody's disapproval

WHO: Nill [personal profile] culver & anyone!
WHERE: All around New Amsterdam.
WHEN: ICly the week of September 24.
WHAT: Exploring the city. Maybe eating some cake.
NOTES OR WARNINGS: TBD.

if the heavens ever did speak [THE SAFEHOUSE]

[After keeping her cooped up for days, they finally tell her she can go, find a job, an apartment, start a life. They tell her her new name: Nill Klein. She's eighteen, done with school, no family, and lost her voice in an accident and the damage was too great to repair. They tell her that her wings won't be an issue because body mods are commonplace here. They even give her a birthday: September 20th, the day she woke up in that alley. She doesn't mention the irony of that to them, because she doesn't even know her real birthday. This one will do.

It's close enough to the truth to be easy to remember, though she'd be a liar to say she isn't disappointed about not going to school. Maybe in a while she'll think about some kind of higher education, but for now, she needs money. With a diploma and a fake resume she should be able to find something, right?

They tell her she can come back if she wants, that there will always be a bed for her at the safehouse--but she still packs up the few things she has into a tattered duffel bag and slings it over her shoulder as she leaves. She doesn't want to be caught unprepared, and it had become a habit for her on the station to carry her few precious belongings on her at all times. It's just easier that way.

With the bag still over her shoulder, she makes a pit stop in the kitchen, rummaging around in the cupboard for something to snack on before she leaves.]


she's the last true mouthpiece [BY THE RIVER]

[For a while, she just goes where her feet take her. She's always had a good memory, but is still sure not to take so many turns that she can't find her way back. She feels the sun on her back, and realizes that she hasn't really felt it in months--not since she was on Kaittos. She takes a deep breath, inhaling all the familiar scents of a big city, and exhales slowly. Freedom may be too strong a word. These Morningstar people know that she's a phony, could probably undo her identity in a moment despite how much time they may have put into creating it. But something in her gut tells her they won't. She's been to their safehouse, seen the other people. Cold as it may be for her to think, she takes comfort in that strange sort of safety.

They could kill her, of course, but something tells her they won't do that, either. Not with this thing in her chest that they took the time to put there.

After a while of walking she ends up at the river, and stares at it in awe for a few silent minutes. Again, it's been months since she's seen anything even close to natural like this; even the plants in the station's greenery had seemed sterile, artificial. Nill drops her pack beside her and sits atop it, wings stretching out into the sunlight behind her as she stares down into the rushing water with a strange, unbreakable fascination.]


every sunday's getting more bleak [HONEY❤HONEY]

[By the time Nill realizes she's hungry, she's spent hours wandering around the city. Nobody has really looked twice at her, nor she at them. The anonymity is freeing, and it had been easy to lose herself in it. But she can feel the too-familiar pangs of hunger starting in her stomach, and it's just then that she smells the most delicious sweetness she ever has in her whole life. She follows the scent until she's standing outside a clean, white-washed building with a big glass window. Inside, she can see pretty girls in pretty dresses carrying trays laden with sweets, and for a few moments all she does is stare.

For the first time in a long, long time, Nill feels self-conscious. Because she used to look like that. She used to have long, beautiful hair and wear soft dresses edged in lace. Even on the ship and the station, she'd kept her dresses--mementos, more than anything, of a life that hadn't really been much of a life, but was still more than she'd had before. And she'd lost it all before she'd even really figured out how to appreciate it.

She reaches up, running a hand through her cropped hair. Now she has a new, different life and no real idea what to do with it.

But that doesn't change the fact that she's hungry. Still, she doesn't venture inside just yet, mentally taking stock of the little money she's been loaned and wondering if it's really worth it to treat herself to something like that.]


a fresh poison each week [CUYP MARKT]

[The bustling market makes Nill feel alive.

Everywhere there is activity, new sights and smells, the sound of people haggling, the taste of competition in the air. No two stalls have exactly the same items, but each shopkeeper acts as if they do, calling to each person who passes, hawking their wares and flashing smiles. It's a dizzying amount of sensory input, and even just a few months ago, Nill might have been overwhelmed.

But she's different. She has a different(ish) name and a different path to tread here than ever before in her life. So she feels bold as she approaches stalls, whether to look around or actually consider buying something (food, usually, because she'd rather have a treat than a trinket). She doesn't have much money yet, and knows she has to be frugal--but she can't help but look at some things longingly, mentally cataloging anything she might want to return for when she actually has the means. What catches her attention the most are the fruits, some familiar but many strange; she hasn't had fruit since the planet Kaittos, and her hand hovers delicately over the produce as if it might disappear the moment she touches it. She acts the same around the flowers, remembering fondly the little garden she and Laura had planted on the station before her friend had left.

They're simple things, fragile things, but Nill has always believed in the temporary more than the concrete. Probably because she herself was meant to be temporary. But she doesn't have to be that girl anymore. There may be a lot going on in this city, horrors she hasn't yet seen and fear she hasn't yet felt, but for this moment, all she sees are the fruits and flowers and how absurdly normal this all is compared to the last year and a half of her life.]


we were born sick [WILDCARD]

[ooc; i'm down for anything! over the next few days, nill will explore as much of the city as she can on foot, but will spend her nights at the safehouse until further notice. please feel free to hit me up on plurk at [plurk.com profile] watchet if you want to do something specific, or drop a message in nill's ic inbox!]
blyat: (★ it's under my skin)

by the river

[personal profile] blyat 2019-02-18 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
[She won't find herself alone. Not far from the artificial river's edge, Cain's sitting with legs stretched out in front of him, booted foot crossed over a knee and hands bare of habitual gloves, fingers dragging through the prickly grass. The day's getting later, hot dry sunlight curbed with the prickle of a breeze -- it's always cooler here, away from the island heat of infrastructure -- and he works in a few hours. He didn't want to spend that time cooped up in the cramped space of his apartment.

When Nill's close enough in his periphery, he turns his head, dark eyes surveying her appearance. Cain recognizes her immediately as one of the other new arrivals; he visited the safehouse for Deimos' sake but kept a distance from most of the others. She may recognize him, too, if she paid attention. He's dressed in neutral shades except for the very bright, highlighter-yellow tank top he wears.]


Hey. [He doesn't appear particularly approachable, but he calls out to her all the same: like a bark, shoulders a tense line across.] You're one of the new ones, huh?
evite: (5x21 (1))

@ the market.

[personal profile] evite 2019-02-18 04:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ the market offers a little bit of everything — from produce grown in cooperative gardens and special vertical planting bays to expensive flowers in sun-drenched glass vases to outdated electronic tech and assorted components for the do-it-yourself-ers in the city. it's sort of a mix between a farmers' market in a bougie town and a flea market in the dustbowl, loud and busy and always offering something different, but daisy likes it.

she's there today to pick up something for dinner, and though she usually is easygoing enough with the local shops, the vendor today seems to have a real hard-on for over-inflated prices. ]


Do you believe this shit? [ she says it to no one in particular, but it happens to be directed to the girl next to her. wings, she thinks, but the thought is brushed away fairly quickly by the argumentative vendor trying to get her to agree to more than last week's cost. ] I'm not paying you that much. No way.

[ her full basket gets dumped on the counter in irritation, and then daisy turns to the stranger again. she hasn't made rounds yet in the safehouse this go-around, considering she was in the hospital and then out of the city for a while, but she can still be nice either way. whether or not this girl's a recent arrival (one of us), she still doesn't deserve to get scammed. ]

Don't buy from this guy, he's an asshole.

[ the vendor shouts, pride smarted and products unbought, but daisy just rolls her eyes. she gestures towards another stand around the corner. ]

If you want fruit, that's the guy to see.
evite: (aos201_0706)

[personal profile] evite 2019-02-21 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ the girl doesn't talk — but she doesn't run away either, so daisy takes one positive over the neutral and heads in the direction of the stand, a quick lift of her head as if to signal for her to come along.

the silence is weird, admittedly speaking, but not uncomfortable. there's a lot to see in this small space, and she can't help but notice the way the other girl takes in the sights, as if seeing them for the first time. a recent arrival, if she had to guess. ]


I'm Daisy, by the way.

[ she doesn't know the other girl's name, so the new amsterdam equivalent of a friend request is sort of out of the question, but she does have an alternative. a trick she picked up at work, an implant adaptation similar to airdrop on an old-fashioned iphone. the closest neural desktop (which, unsurprisingly, happens to be the blonde's) receives a photo: the front of a grocery store — the grocery store, the civilian front for morningstar's safehouse — with daisy's face in the reflection, a futuristic yet retro version of a myspace selfie. tagged on the photo is daisy's own neural id. ]

If you get scammed again, feel free to give me a ring. That guy's ... [ she huffs ] He likes to rip people off, you know? Just because he's the only dude in here with bananas.
blyat: (★ it comes out above my head)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-02-22 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
[He's not given any sort of verbal response to the question, and his brow furrows in question at that, but it's possible she's just quiet. He's reminded of Deimos' general disposition that trends toward the inclination to stay silent and only speak up when it can't be avoided. So maybe that's what's going on.

Subtlety and tact aren't his specialties. Cain turns where he's seated, upper body twisting toward her.]


You got a name?
blyat: (★ just one fight)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-02-22 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
[Okay, well, that's... weird.

That curve of a smile in addition to her general demeanor suggests more than timidity. He plants one hand in the grass and levers himself up to stand, gaze turning more critical.]


Cain Fighter. [Not his real last name, not even his real first name, but it serves for an ID. Whether or not she's as quiet as myshonok, he decides this will serve better than verbal confirmation. It's something they all share sooner or later, anyway, those IDs.] Look me up.
Edited (sorry for all the edits!) 2019-02-22 06:22 (UTC)
evite: (aos122_003)

[personal profile] evite 2019-02-23 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ daisy opens her mouth to reply, but then stops. she considers the fact that, for whatever reason, this girl clearly feels more comfortable communicating via the neural network than out loud, and while that's not necessarily the most normal thing in the world — well, does it matter? not so much. daisy shrugs and goes with the flow. ]

the airdrop?
here, i'll show you.


[ with a few blinks, daisy brings up her desktop; the personal workspace expands, trading invisibility for a faint blue glow that illuminates the space in front of them, though it retains its privacy in showing itself to only those she opts to share it with. now, having received a message from the girl, daisy adds her in.

much like her own interests and trains of thought, daisy's neural desktop is organized chaos. posted notes, pinned addresses, a whole section off to the corner for her current mapping project; it's all there, in various stages of completion, to be accessed upon request. for nill's purposes, she opts to click in to a collection of photos taken for bobbi's introductory booklet, all of various points of interest throughout the city. ]


grab what you want, and you just push

[ the reality is as simple as the words. much like drag and drop with a mouse, the neural network's ability to digitally push information to the closest person (or persons) upon request allows for much easier transfers of information, whether at work or at play. daisy's used it for everything from sharing schematics of weapon design to a recipe for dinner.

as an example, she pushes the photos past the digital edge of her own desktop onto nill's. copy, paste. ]


you must be new here
i haven't seen many kiwis around, but there's a stall around that has great prickly pear
evite: (020)

[personal profile] evite 2019-02-25 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
yeah, of course
glad to help :)


[ she's found that, while convenient, thought-to-text often leads to miscommunication. after all, you can't assume tone via text. so daisy's gotten in the habit of adding old-fashioned emoticons to her messages as a friendly gesture, rolling back to her pre-rising tide days on the dial-up era internet. ]

also, before i forget
you're going to want to get a buddy, somebody you can check in with
we're aiming for every other day, but more often isn't a bad thing
you check for them, they check for you -- and if someone's not found, you let someone know, okay?


[ nill will get her wish, because with a few quick gestures, daisy forwards a direct link to the map she developed during the last big firefight. the map is sharable, already coded to be locked to anyone with access to morningstar's servers, but given the amount of information already on the network, she imagines new arrivals won't have much reason to go looking for it. ]

prickly pear's technically from cacti, so it grows pretty well even when we're under water rationing -- kind of tastes like watermelon, weirdly enough
the guy that runs the stand is a big conservation junkie
his prices are good, but he'll talk your ear off
blyat: (★ slash slash)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-02-25 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[The message flashes across his field of vision when he accesses it, @nill.klein, clearly belonging to the young woman in front of him. Cain's dark eyes hover on those wings for a brief moment - was she augmented in some way? They seem an unnecessary addition, unlike replacing a lost limb. Cosmetic, then, is his only assumption. There's no way they would have the productive purpose of flight.]

You don't like to talk, huh? [Now standing, his arms cross over his chest in an automatic posture. After a moment, Cain's expression creases in thought.] Or can't.

[Which one is it?]
blyat: (★ i will not vanish)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-02-28 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
[The effect's not lost on him. Nill stands, shoulders squared, feet set apart and head angled back, all the appearance of a puffed up bird. While it wasn't his intention to intimidate, part of him recognizes the posture. Her face gives nothing away. Impressive that he can't read anything on it, a niggling sense of curiosity at the back of his mind for who he's faced with. He knows none of the displaced are ordinary. But what is it about Nill, then?

As Markus got him wondering, what is her world like, that wings are attached to someone's back like some pet in a cage?

Cain doesn't move away, but he does half-turn toward the river, his question answered.]


With all the tech they got here, you think they'd be able to fix it. [If they can turn an android into a perfect replica of a human being, shouldn't they be able to restore someone's voice? That is,] If you wanted to.

[His dark eyes tilt back toward the river.]

You ever seen anything like this before?
Edited 2019-02-28 05:45 (UTC)
whitehair: ( incestualicons ) (Default)

( hello is it garbage collection day yet )

[personal profile] whitehair 2019-03-01 02:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ heine is not good at a lot of things - maybe he doesn't even really bother with the trying, most of the time. but the situation is as different as it could be here to how it used to be. it's a belated message that he sends her, after he finds out that she'd been released from the safehouse, free to go whereever she wanted. ]

where are you?
evite: (Default)

[personal profile] evite 2019-03-01 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
they're real big on reduce reuse recycle here
it can take a little getting used to, but it's not too bad.


[ she misses paper more than she misses free use of water. being able to doodle, to write out lists, just to scribble down notes or leave cheesy post-its for fitz to find on his bathroom mirror — none of it important, but a comfort that has no place here. sure, she can do a lot of that via the implant, but it's not the same.

finding replacements for creature comforts has been the most challenging part of daisy's existence … aside from catching a rage virus, getting brutally injured, and then disappearing, anyway. the most mundanely challenging part, she should say. ]


i'm guessing you're still shacking up at the safehouse, then?
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[personal profile] whitehair 2019-03-01 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ don't be excited!!!! he isn't worth it...

it is a shock for him, even if technically it has only been a span of a month or two - it's not just the physical change, either, though that still takes him aback when he isn't expecting it. ]


looking for you.

don't wander around.


[ he doesn't mean to sound like a fussy mother hen - that's really the furthest thing he intends to be - but there's much to look out for in new amsterdam. ]
blyat: (★ it's under my skin)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-03-02 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
[The flutter of wings catch the corner of his eye, just a flicker of white movement, and he reels back some of the immediate knee-jerk fascination. He's never seen a bird in his life. On screens, in pictures, those grainy broadcasts detailing creatures on Earth -- some of which were imported to the colonies, but not a bird. He's always wondered if it was because they were too fragile. It seemed like it, only feathers and tiny bones.

That reply surprises him, but then, maybe it shouldn't. In a world where a thought can instigate conversation, words etched across one's field of vision, maybe someone's voice isn't that necessary. Cain's never thought about it like that.]


I know someone who doesn't talk much. Called him little mouse, in our language. [He doesn't know why he's saying it, or why he's sharing it with a stranger, but Deimos is at the front of his mind considering his recent and unexpected arrival. That, and it feels... easy to talk to someone who won't verbally respond. Cain taps the scar at the back of his skull,] He's way more chatty with these things too.

So, you're not from Earth? [It's an assumption: no rivers, no Earth. Is it a correct one? Tilting his head up, Cain looks at the sky -- the slivers of it visible through the jigsaw pattern of high-reaching buildings.] Where? Up in space?
Edited 2019-03-02 05:15 (UTC)
blyat: (★ i will not vanish)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-03-08 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not his first time speaking to someone face to face using the text-messaging feature of the implants, but it's still strange, even with that experience under his belt. Certainly a convenience -- no reason to rely on a datapad or other electronic in hand, let alone the archaic pen-and-paper ensemble.

He lets her talk, most of his attention having centered back on the river. He's found himself often drawn to it, and he's not shy to admit its power over him. All of Earth is a strange and puzzling reality around him, similar and yet unlike anything he's imagined.

Cain reads the sentences of text that scrawl across his vision before responding.]


It's weird standing here, isn't it? After being up there. [He gestures toward the dark sky, difficult to see.] I don't miss it.

[Thoughts circling back to her earlier words, preserved to him in the message, he says,] You think people don't say what they mean when they talk? Or just that it's harder?
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[personal profile] whitehair 2019-03-08 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ he probably doesn't even think about things like that - that nill would actually listen to anything he says or otherwise tells her to do on an every day basis, and not only just when it actually matters, like 'we're probably going to all die in five minutes' sort. ]

that's fine. i'll come to you.

send me your location?
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[personal profile] whitehair 2019-03-09 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ he doesn't know how far away she is from the safehouse, so he figures it's just easier for him to make a straight beeline to her location.... it's only practical to not have to double back. ]

be there soon

[ the location she sends is an area he's vaguely familiar with; he probably had a job there in one of the shops briefly before he got fired. it's not too far off, as he was still near the safehouse anyway, so it doesn't take him long to get there.

the sun is glaring today - the light too harsh for someone like him who's more used to the filtered, artificial lights, and he's got the hood of his jacket pulled up. stopping in the middle of the street, he squints as he peers around him, trying to pick out nill or, otherwise, the blue door she described, at least. ]
blyat: (★ one night)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-03-12 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
Huh. Never really thought about it.

[Thinking, speaking. Texting via instantaneous thought. He's only ever said the words that came to mind, an impulsive trip off his tongue. Most of the time. There were moments he'd had to slow down, consider the deliberate choice of each word -- never good moments.]

Military station, then a ship. We started out close to Mars, near the colonies, but a volunteer mission had some of us enlisting to go on board a battleship to the frontlines. [He glances at Nill, eyes drawn again to the pale flutter of wings.] Never seen Earth's sky before now.
blyat: (★ must be morning)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-03-14 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
[A lot of other skies, painting in his mind an image of a hundred other planets, a hundred other worlds. Not the blue sunsets of Mars, or the pale gauzy red of Earth -- what he's seen of it through the jagged space between buildings. Even on top of them, the sky seemed so far out of reach. Surreal for how long he's spent up there.

And then she says what she does, and he realizes he was caught staring. Cain doesn't lower his eyes, but they do narrow, cat-like.]


How's that even possible? Are you part bird?

[It's the first thing his mind leaps to. Genetic splicing, or something? How can he even begin to know?]
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[personal profile] whitehair 2019-03-16 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ the movement catches the corner of his eyes and heine turns his head, watching nill as she ducks her way around the crowd of people, only moving closer when she's a few paces away; the shadow cast from his hood covers his face from view, but she might see a faint quirk of a smile, always more of an ironic, quizzical sort of sneer than anything else, if she tilts her head just so. he doesn't ask her how she is - too terribly unaccustomed to many things like this, many normal things, any sign of concern; he settles with just giving her a quick glance, a once-over, before turning his gaze away. ]

Let's go.

[ it's just about nearly past lunchtime, but this particular part of town is bustling at any moment of the day (and night), so there would be plenty of choice to be had. Heine walks slow, keeping pace if she wants to have a look around. ]
blyat: (★ just one fight)

[personal profile] blyat 2019-03-19 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
[A straightforward answer, although it brings him pause. Genetic modification is simply a part of his world, hence where his mind leaped, but he's never heard of it applying to animal genes.

He's no scientist either.]


Huh. [It's not his business, Cain tells himself, even if he's never seen a real bird in person. The feathers look so delicate.] Well, good luck with the sightseeing tour. Nill.

[He has a shift to get to. With a quick twitch of fingers at his temple in a salute, Cain starts off, just like that.]