[It's a shock to the system - all of it. She understands when he stumbles - shaking her head at his apology - No, it's fine, I know, I know you didn't mean---it's all right. Not with words but with thought as he reaches for her hand.
It's hard for her, too. But she doesn't want this - hidden behind so many doors - so many things shoved down and locked away - this purposeful forgetting - all the times she'd thought on her dead family in the Vale only to feel apart - to remember Jon with fondness and the first sense of kinship -
(I'm a bastard too now)
It's a mess of mingling - the old thoughts and the new - and gods be god she's Sansa, not Alayne - just Sansa - still in a hiding of sorts, but among many others.]
I'm glad I'm here if it means I'm with you. I'm glad I'm not home.
[There, she's said it. She only wishes that all of them could have made the leap - or whatever it was that got them here. Here she only has to half pretend, and not in front of Jon, her cover story doesn't extend into her own thoughts and further complicate her own sense of self. She doesn't have to be Alayne all the time, and she doesn't have to be on her guard in the same way. Not against the one she's supposed to (appear to) trust.
Even his attempt at a smile is more welcome than anything else she could imagine at this moment.]
A unicorn?
[That's what she says - but what she thinks is: Lady didn't know because Lady hadn't lived. She's glad that she hadn't remembered anything of these other worlds when she'd returned to Westeros - unaware she'd ever had the ability to warg at all. Had it been dormant inside her all that those years in King's Landing? In the Vale? Or was it no more than a trick of these worlds giving her what she wished for in the same way it gave her Lady, and even her own family...]
I'm glad to be myself again, too.
I'll share anything you want to know about this place if it's something I can answer, and if I cannot, then...
[How does one share a document on the network with the----ah, yes.]
There's no little device here. It's in the implant.
[Very lightly brushing the area of the implant scar. She's still not sure why they had to take ALL of the hair, though.]
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It's hard for her, too. But she doesn't want this - hidden behind so many doors - so many things shoved down and locked away - this purposeful forgetting - all the times she'd thought on her dead family in the Vale only to feel apart - to remember Jon with fondness and the first sense of kinship -
(I'm a bastard too now)
It's a mess of mingling - the old thoughts and the new - and gods be god she's Sansa, not Alayne - just Sansa - still in a hiding of sorts, but among many others.]
I'm glad I'm here if it means I'm with you. I'm glad I'm not home.
[There, she's said it. She only wishes that all of them could have made the leap - or whatever it was that got them here. Here she only has to half pretend, and not in front of Jon, her cover story doesn't extend into her own thoughts and further complicate her own sense of self. She doesn't have to be Alayne all the time, and she doesn't have to be on her guard in the same way. Not against the one she's supposed to (appear to) trust.
Even his attempt at a smile is more welcome than anything else she could imagine at this moment.]
A unicorn?
[That's what she says - but what she thinks is: Lady didn't know because Lady hadn't lived. She's glad that she hadn't remembered anything of these other worlds when she'd returned to Westeros - unaware she'd ever had the ability to warg at all. Had it been dormant inside her all that those years in King's Landing? In the Vale? Or was it no more than a trick of these worlds giving her what she wished for in the same way it gave her Lady, and even her own family...]
I'm glad to be myself again, too.
I'll share anything you want to know about this place if it's something I can answer, and if I cannot, then...
[How does one share a document on the network with the----ah, yes.]
There's no little device here. It's in the implant.
[Very lightly brushing the area of the implant scar. She's still not sure why they had to take ALL of the hair, though.]