In body only. My mind didn't matter to them. [That's what's messed up about them compared to the Commanders. At least they revered the Nightbloods. Yes, they forced them to fight to the death, but there was at least ... some logic to it. It's not a logic she abides by, but it isn't selfish. Survival of a few for the many.]
When they took me, they drugged me. Actually—someone else drugged me, but they took advantage of the paralytic toxin while they could. They injected me with a serum that's meant to scrub my mind—scrub away me—[She shrugs.] But there was other tech in there. Same maker, different era. Likely after they went off on their mission. [She waves a hand to indicate that that's a long story.]
I was able to latch on to that tech and stay alive long enough to ... cause problems. But in every sense of the word, I was dead. I no longer could control my body. And yes, they put a stack in me. It's gone now. It got taken out. And with it, the woman on there is gone, too. [Clarke both sympathizes with what Josephine had become but also hates her at the same time. Monstrous, but can she ever truly hate another monster? She is Wanheda, after all.]
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When they took me, they drugged me. Actually—someone else drugged me, but they took advantage of the paralytic toxin while they could. They injected me with a serum that's meant to scrub my mind—scrub away me—[She shrugs.] But there was other tech in there. Same maker, different era. Likely after they went off on their mission. [She waves a hand to indicate that that's a long story.]
I was able to latch on to that tech and stay alive long enough to ... cause problems. But in every sense of the word, I was dead. I no longer could control my body. And yes, they put a stack in me. It's gone now. It got taken out. And with it, the woman on there is gone, too. [Clarke both sympathizes with what Josephine had become but also hates her at the same time. Monstrous, but can she ever truly hate another monster? She is Wanheda, after all.]