At the end of the day, you still have to know. [Clarke understands that. The only reason she hadn't been driven to go back home was because she genuinely didn't know if she would survive the experience. If she had known about Madi, it would've been different. But alone, without anyone to focus on but herself and her survival? She kept herself sane for two months with messages that Bellamy would never hear.

She can't imagine doing that for another two thousand days without Madi.]

I understand. I wanted to stay here before, but I had good reason for it. Now I want to bring my people here. But ... just days ago—to me, anyway—I might have fought to go back. For a few brief moments there, it looked like we had something good. And even if we didn't, we could've made it good.

[They were determined to make that happen no matter what.]