[The problem is: Riku catches on anyway. She's been more talkative, more frantic today than usual. Maybe it's because he knows the subject matter, too. It's not as if he's in the dark. Riku can find the means to talk himself out of discussing his feelings. That comes easily: the logic sliding together, answering what he needs to know. He stalls his thoughts once he has an idea of what to do.
His mind is at ease, but worried. A simple "yeah" could be nothing. But he won't let himself think that. Riku can be accidentally callous in some ways through his awkwardness, but it's not his goal unless he's mad.
Riku doesn't think he could ever get mad at Nill. That just doesn't compute.]
We're okay. We made it through. [Riku would say that it was "worth it," but he remembers his pain at having to say good-bye to Rey. At realizing it wasn't enough.
Was it worth all that pain? Yes, most likely. But it's hard to say, hard for him to evaluate for anyone else. Heck, it's hard to do it for himself.]
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His mind is at ease, but worried. A simple "yeah" could be nothing. But he won't let himself think that. Riku can be accidentally callous in some ways through his awkwardness, but it's not his goal unless he's mad.
Riku doesn't think he could ever get mad at Nill. That just doesn't compute.]
We're okay. We made it through. [Riku would say that it was "worth it," but he remembers his pain at having to say good-bye to Rey. At realizing it wasn't enough.
Was it worth all that pain? Yes, most likely. But it's hard to say, hard for him to evaluate for anyone else. Heck, it's hard to do it for himself.]