( that was honestly a lot more explanation that illya expected. he can't quite empathize because he had no one to live up to especially in light of his father's fall from grace and his mother's other activities but he can see how it could be hard to live up to something so monumental. )

I am willing.

( he nods. )

If you are willing and dedicated, you can be as good as you want to be. And it seems that you are so we'll keep going. Are you in a lot of pain right now?