[ He adds on in light humor, a little wry. He's been given permission, after all, to make it distinct. Third layer, maybe?
In any case: ]
I got fake clarity. I got two days at a time of bonding with people who I could convince myself that I had this... connection with. You think to yourself, oh- we went on this spiritual experience together, this is the kind of thing that changes people for life. We're always gonna have that.
[ Another soft puff of breath, a little shake to his head. ]
But no, it wears off, and what you think you knew about who you really are just... slips away, along with the people who went through it with you. That's where I stopped, but I know some of them kept going. Trying harder to find it, to make it permanent. Chasing stuff I never will.
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[ He adds on in light humor, a little wry. He's been given permission, after all, to make it distinct. Third layer, maybe?
In any case: ]
I got fake clarity. I got two days at a time of bonding with people who I could convince myself that I had this... connection with. You think to yourself, oh- we went on this spiritual experience together, this is the kind of thing that changes people for life. We're always gonna have that.
[ Another soft puff of breath, a little shake to his head. ]
But no, it wears off, and what you think you knew about who you really are just... slips away, along with the people who went through it with you. That's where I stopped, but I know some of them kept going. Trying harder to find it, to make it permanent. Chasing stuff I never will.