[The true and proper temptation is to retreat until she's better. Clarke has been paying attention to reports from others, so she knows that there will be a time when she's better. Others were better, after all. They just needed time, too.
When she opens her mouth to speak, the sound that comes out scares her. Unsettles her. She shudders in place. And then she latches on to the neural implant, and uses it to send a message to Lexa:] I'm sorry. I can't bear the way I sound right now. You can come closer. [Clarke isn't so consumed with vanity that she can't deal with Lexa seeing her this way. It's more that she doesn't like how she feels or the uncertainty of what she saw with Murphy. She can't even focus on the questions there. Not yet.]
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When she opens her mouth to speak, the sound that comes out scares her. Unsettles her. She shudders in place. And then she latches on to the neural implant, and uses it to send a message to Lexa:] I'm sorry. I can't bear the way I sound right now. You can come closer. [Clarke isn't so consumed with vanity that she can't deal with Lexa seeing her this way. It's more that she doesn't like how she feels or the uncertainty of what she saw with Murphy. She can't even focus on the questions there. Not yet.]