[ she chokes it out, all tears and gasping. relief mingles with exhaustion. these things win out over the grief, the self-loathing, for the moment. it's too much to feel at once.
to steady herself, she plants her palms on clarke's shoulders, the jacket material separating them. the empathy bond now would be too much, too soon. she'd had enough of that. she's emptied out. but ... ]
Clarke. [ she says it again, this time an anchor. she's here, she's back, she's herself. and her eyes are back in focus, fixed on the other woman. it will be messy, later, when she has to contend more fully with what she'd done, but it's clear as day now: ] Thank you.
[ because she can see, now, that clarke hadn't been hurting her. she'd been saving her. again. even though clarke had her issues with rey and what she had recently done. ]
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[ she chokes it out, all tears and gasping. relief mingles with exhaustion. these things win out over the grief, the self-loathing, for the moment. it's too much to feel at once.
to steady herself, she plants her palms on clarke's shoulders, the jacket material separating them. the empathy bond now would be too much, too soon. she'd had enough of that. she's emptied out. but ... ]
Clarke. [ she says it again, this time an anchor. she's here, she's back, she's herself. and her eyes are back in focus, fixed on the other woman. it will be messy, later, when she has to contend more fully with what she'd done, but it's clear as day now: ] Thank you.
[ because she can see, now, that clarke hadn't been hurting her. she'd been saving her. again. even though clarke had her issues with rey and what she had recently done. ]