[He shakes his head a little at that, not entirely sure how to answer without going into details he doesn't want to get into.]

No, I knew I was dying, but I hadn't yet. When I woke up in Hadriel, some of my injuries were healed enough that I lived, but the next few months kind of... Sucked worse than Hadriel usually did.

[And although it sort of bothers him that he only remembers bits and pieces of those first few months, especially the first one, he's also a little thankful for it.]