I think it would be a lot more difficult if you didn't try and live some kind of life here. If you were always waiting to go home and it never happened?

( it sounds devastating and he's been through that enough. he sighs and shrugs a shoulder. he wants to go home more than anything but he can't constantly let himself get pushed down because of it. )

So, you kind of have to live, you know. Get a job, make friends, fall in love —

( he trails off and purses his lips. )

You do your best.