Of course I have. I'm the Commander of people who were all at war once, before I forced them into peace. I've seen hundreds of people die in front of my eyes, hundreds more put in mass graves or burned, villages wiped out of existence. The widows, the orphans, the survivors, some of them move on, but some of them are simply empty.

[ She speaks calmly and coolly. These experiences are natural to her, real to her. More so than the losses in the Aerie that she felt more deeply. That Lexa never saw death and destruction to this level, it was a different kind of violence in there, more insidious than a true war. ]

If you're empty, you feel nothing. No rage. No interest in violence. No interest in breathing or existing. Just a shell.