[Clarke shakes her head at the first question. Knowing that Madi isn't here is a bit of a relief. She knows that there are some people who are confident that their people must be locked away somewhere, ready to be rescued, but she's not comforted by that idea. Thinking she hasn't been brought here yet gives Clarke peace.
Either way, there's no sense that she doesn't mind the question, it's just that what he goes on to ask gives her a way to tie it together.]
A friend of mine offered that to me, too. [A chance to visit his world. To live there. Clarke sometimes wonders what it would have been like, if she hadn't been so afraid that she would make things worse there. The problem with her is that she doesn't always know how to curb that in herself. She's better these days, better than she's ever been, but there's still a fear of it.
And back then, she knew that part of herself too well: the part that would shovel people's problems onto her shoulders, and never know when to stop.]
That was before I knew about my daughter. It was supposed to be a way out. I guess it wouldn't be that way for everyone, but I'd lost everything. Or thought I had. [She figures those offers aren't made lightly. She just also doesn't assume that he had a darker, more unhappy reason for wanting to go to a different world.]
I hope we can help you get there when this is all over—either to her world, or to Nate's eventually.
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Either way, there's no sense that she doesn't mind the question, it's just that what he goes on to ask gives her a way to tie it together.]
A friend of mine offered that to me, too. [A chance to visit his world. To live there. Clarke sometimes wonders what it would have been like, if she hadn't been so afraid that she would make things worse there. The problem with her is that she doesn't always know how to curb that in herself. She's better these days, better than she's ever been, but there's still a fear of it.
And back then, she knew that part of herself too well: the part that would shovel people's problems onto her shoulders, and never know when to stop.]
That was before I knew about my daughter. It was supposed to be a way out. I guess it wouldn't be that way for everyone, but I'd lost everything. Or thought I had. [She figures those offers aren't made lightly. She just also doesn't assume that he had a darker, more unhappy reason for wanting to go to a different world.]
I hope we can help you get there when this is all over—either to her world, or to Nate's eventually.