incelligent: i dont like that idea (07)
simon ratfink laurent 🐀 ([personal profile] incelligent) wrote in [community profile] meadowlarklogs2021-03-06 10:33 am

ENTRY 002 + THE MURDERFAMILY GROUPCHAT

WHO: Simon, Shinobu, Wade, Fenris, Lance, John (terminator guy)
WHERE: groupchat hell
WHEN: 3:33 AM
WHAT: Simon proposes an alliance.
NOTES OR WARNINGS: likely to be v stupid

[Text sent from @simon.laurent to:

@shinobu.kocho, @wade.wilson, @fenris.shartan, @lance.sweets, and @john.dixon

Sent: 3:33 AM
]

I AM PROPOSING AN ALLIANCE
ishotyouuu: (kinda depressed)

@wade.wilson

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-10 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
as tempting as it is smth tells me not a lot of us can afford a 6 person apartment rite now buddy

if thats what ur proposing anyway

not opposed to all of us living in the same apartment complex tho

thatd be convenient enough
ishotyouuu: (sorry i wasn't listening)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-10 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
seems like an awful lot of busywork just 2 find potential roommates there kiddo

u sure ur not just trying 2 build an army
ishotyouuu: (wait what)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-10 06:43 pm (UTC)(link)
wouldnt rly know

havent been part of a team since 2010


[I don't know if your Uncanny X-Force days really count at this point in your canon, Wade--]

u didnt rly answer my question either

bc this doesnt sound like a typical roommate wanted application on Craigslist

jussayin
ishotyouuu: (today's a bad day)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-10 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[The remark about his loner habits stings, but only for a moment, as he's faced with the full brunt of a teenager's rancor. What the hell even happened to this kid? Wade doesn't bother giving the message a response, immediately rising from where he's lying on the bed.

Simon will hear the door to Wade's bedroom click open, and a few seconds later Wade emerges, crossing the room to where Simon is sitting on the couch.]


Hey. [A pause, during which he clears his throat awkwardly. This is always the hardest part.] Sorry. Guess when you've been exposed to this so many times you forget that some people haven't. I shouldn't have been that flippant about it. It's a good idea you had, all things considered.
ishotyouuu: (really need a nap rn)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-10 07:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Wasn't sleepin'.

[He hesitates, but Simon doesn't seem as though he's pushing Wade away, despite his words. Finally, Wade sits down on the couch next to him, careful not to touch him. He sighs.]

Listen, kid. [There's no trace of condescension in that nickname.] I know I come across as a goofy jokester that doesn't take anything seriously, but that's just how I deal with shit, y'know? It's a... whaddya call it-- defense mechanism. Had it since I was a kid. An' if that gave you the impression that I don't care, well... then I'm sorry. Sometimes I forget how fucked up things can really get here. I shouldn't have made light of it, not to you. That was shitty of me.
ishotyouuu: (contemplating)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-11 06:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[Wade doesn't speak for a while, taking in Simon's stops and starts; the things he's leaving out as well as the things he's saying. There's an ache in him, somewhere in his chest as he listens to Simon stop himself from saying... what? That he's not popular? Unliked? Looked down on? Wade can't mistake that tone of voice, no matter what euphemisms Simon decides to use instead. For a moment, he's transported back in time to when he was a much younger Wade, angry and defiant and wanting to prove to the world that he deserved validation and respect.

He suddenly has a craving for a cigarette, despite not smoking since he was twenty.

Wade sighs again, crossing one leg over the other and leaning back against the couch.]


Had it done to me a couple times. Does it count as a couple times if you just never leave the facility and they just keep bringing you back in for more operations? Or does it just count as one time?

[He shrugs.] Was about six months' worth, in any case. Maybe. Time kinda blurs together when all you gotta look forward to is getting repeatedly carved open like a Thanksgiving turkey.
ishotyouuu: (comforting)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-19 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
[...Shit. That was too much information, wasn't it? Wade had meant to divulge that in his typically glib way, completely expecting Simon to just tune him out like people in his old world would've done. He hadn't meant to hit the kid with that hard of a reality check. Wade sees the tears but has the grace not to draw attention to them, leaning forward and resting his feet on the floor as he looks at the young man. He finds himself wishing, not for the first time, that he still had his mask to hide behind.]

Hey... hey. 'S all right, y'know? I survived. I got outta there. An' that just means I'm used to that kinda thing. Didn't mean to bum you out with my sob story-- it's ancient history now.

[Only a technical truth, to be sure, but Wade figures it wouldn't hurt to tell the kid this small white lie. Something compels him to reach over and place a hand on Simon's shoulder. He must've slipped up somehow; must've grazed a hole in Simon's shirt or something. All he knows is that he's suddenly awash in intense, overwhelming feelings-- feelings of anxiety and concern and pity, feelings of loneliness... and some other, strange emotion that Wade is shocked to discover is admiration. It's this last emotion that throws Wade the most off-balance. His heart clenches painfully inside his chest, and he suddenly finds his arms around Simon, hugging him close and whispering a hoarse mantra of it's okay, it's okay, it's okay.

The young man feels so small in his embrace. Wade doesn't know why that pains him so.]
ishotyouuu: (u-um)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-03-24 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Normally Wade would have responded instantly to Simon's panicked attempts to break away. But soon the panic subsides, replaced by a strange calm-- a yearning, almost, like a puppy so starved for affection that it melts at the first gentle touch. It's unfair, finding cracks and scars in the young man's heart that are so similar to his own.

Simon's question is so soft, posed so delicately that Wade almost misses it, but eventually it registers in his mind.]


Not just for me, no. For everyone they hurt. I needed to avenge them, y'know? Avenge the people who didn't make it; the ones who lost the dead pool long before I even got there. Avenge the only real friend I ever had in that place, who they punished to get at me.

It's why I couldn't die just yet, no matter how much I wanted to. Because it wasn't just about escape anymore, y'know? Good people were getting tortured and I... I needed to make them pay for it.

{Wade draws in a breath of his own, lets it out in a slow exhale, and finally detaches himself from Simon. A bashful smile upturns his lips now, and his hand awkwardly reaches up to squeeze the back of his neck.]

Sorry. Didn't mean to make this... y'know. An AMC moment.
ishotyouuu: (hmm)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-04-01 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's a good thing Simon no longer has the benefit of the empathy bond, because otherwise he would've been able to feel Wade's doubt at his assessment of the situation. Because he hadn't been thinking about the others at all, had he? The living ones, the ones who were still suffering. He'd been thinking about himself, about his need to get out; to avenge Worm and all the others who came before him and burn the place to the ground.

And maybe that was just his mercenary mind at work-- so focused on his mission that he couldn't see the trees for the forest. He still doesn't even know how many of his fellow captives made it out of the ensuing carnage. Maybe none of them. The thought is kind of darkly funny, though he can't really put his finger on why.]


AMC, that's... it's a TV channel. Has a big emphasis on drama and angst and stuff. Can't remember what it stands for.
ishotyouuu: (eyyyyy)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-04-12 05:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah.

[Wade tries to remember what shows he used to watch with his mom when he was growing up. Probably not very many-- there was no HBO or FX or Netflix back then, and he was more of an outdoorsy type of kid anyway. It suddenly occurs to him that this remark about Simon's home life might be more of an admission that Simon is prepared to let on-- that he might be homesick for the life he left behind.]

That's okay. We can make up for lost time now, yeah? Got tons of stuff on here-- nature shows, sitcoms... I'll even look the other way if you wanna watch some R-rated movies. It'll be our little secret.

[He gives Simon a conspiratorial wink.]
ishotyouuu: (u up?)

[personal profile] ishotyouuu 2021-04-20 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh, Weasel would love this kid. Wade briefly entertains himself with thoughts of the two-- one grown-ass man and one gangly teenager-- nerding out over D&D or Star Trek or the multitude of other media created to please awkward shut-ins. Not for the first time, he feels a pang of homesickness; a wistful desire to see his resident techie here. He would've gotten a real kick out of this place.

Wade flashes Simon his most winning smile.]


Oh, I think I can find somethin' that suits your tastes. Ever heard of a little show called Xena: Warrior Princess?